it’s completely pitch black but i could see my hands clearly, and then at one point i was watching myself be dead and my best friend holding my body and completey shutting down and sobbing uncontrollably, i tried to push them off but nothing was working and i thought i had turned into a ghost, and then fast forward they were still mourning after what looked like years had gone by, because in my deeam they had their master diploma on the wall but haven’t left their home since
This dream could symbolize feelings of disconnection, fear of loss or abandonment, and the struggle to find closure. The pitch-black darkness might represent a sense of uncertainty or the fear of the unknown. Seeing your hands clearly may suggest a desire for control or a need to grasp onto something tangible in the midst of emotional turmoil.
The image of watching yourself dead and your best friend holding your body could signify a fear of how others would react or cope with your absence. Your friend's intense grief and uncontrollable sobbing might reflect their deep emotional attachment to you, as well as the potential impact your absence would have on them.
The inability to push them off and the belief of becoming a ghost could indicate a sense of powerlessness or frustration in trying to communicate or impact their emotions. Transitioning to seeing your friend mourning after what appeared to be years going by may suggest a prolonged period of grief or the difficulty of moving on. The presence of the diploma but staying confined to their home could symbolize a lack of progress or the struggle to find motivation to engage with the outside world without you.
Overall, this dream may be highlighting your concerns about the impact your absence could have on your loved ones and the emotional difficulties they might experience. It could also reflect your own desire to find closure and overcome the fear of being forgotten or unimportant even after you're gone.